river of tears,a cry of heart.

Maybe I am asking too much,yeah but i don’t wanna blame myself then again,it’s not because it feels good and makes me happy but because of my fear inside and wanting you more and more instead.I don’t really know what to do and what to think.I want to make love to you once more could be that possible,even soon?I don’t wanna lose you,but should I let you go,Sorry I’m not that strong I fell and I love everything about about you, Sorry for loving you,sorry that i fell in love even i insist to my cells to forget you I can’t, that sweet smile that makes me weak and forget and love you even more I’m sorry that I can’t let you go.It’s hard for me to let you go even if you are gone,why?Why does my heart loves you more than i expected.I wish i could wake up from this dream of having you one of these days with not even pretending that I’m over from the past we have shared together.I miss you yeah I’m still missing you but you’re million miles away from me now,should i let you go or you should let me go…I’m a fool,and how long it will takes for me to say I’m alright seconds,minute,hours,a day ,a week,months year somebody can tell me!anybody please.I can’t get you out of my mind night and day from the time I wake up till i lay down to my bed, i’m not that ready to forgive you, i really am not.this is the hardest thing i’ll ever i do in my life and that is loving you, this isn’t my ordinary love i guess.Now, how can i say that i will never stop until you get mine, if you are not be able to be mine anymore…I love you…and sorry I can’t let you,because when i do, it will add more pains which i can no longer endure.

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